I'm No One Else But Me

I've been wanting to write this for quite some time now but I just can't because I've been really busy with work. By busy, I meant really busy. I work for about 10-11hrs a day for the past few days. If that's not busy, I don't know what it's called. Now, while waiting for my clients to reply, I thought why waste time waiting when I can use it and write this blog? So here I am!

I find it funny when you're doing what you love and when you're already slowly succeeding in it, people starts doubting you more. I knew a lot of people who never believed in what I'm capable of. People I was friends with in the past. People I once hang out with but like what the saying goes, people come and go. Everyone who come to your life will always have a purpose.

When I was younger, I've always been so conscious around people, of what they think of me but as years passed by, I learned I shouldn't really give a damn about them. As long as I do what I love and I'm with people who really knows the real me and still accepted me, that's what's important.

In the past, I was a girl who never get out of my comfort zone. Now, I'm happy and proud to say that I've taken a lot of risks in my life. It wasn't easy. There was a lot of ups and downs. I learned it the fucking hard way and I don't regret it. Each and every one of those made me stronger and made me who I am now.

Some people who'll get to read this might think "Nah, these are all just words. She's just being arrogant and all those." If you're one of them, I don't really care. Besides, since you're here reading this, it only means you're also curious about my life.

I'm not writing this because I'm being arrogant and being too proud about what I achieved. I still have a very very very long way to go and I know that since day one. That's why I never stopped  learning, never stopped improving myself whenever I can. I just want to let people know that I'm just a human being like you but I'm not saying we're exactly the same. All of us are children of God but it's up to us to live our life however we want to. It's the choices we made that make us who we are.
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I had enough of all those bs in the past. When you're young, you always think that having a lot of friends is what's important and who knows maybe there are also some adults who thinks that way too. It's their life not mine but for me, I learned that you don't necessarily have to have a lot of friends. All you need are a few real friends who you can really count on through ups and downs. I have my real friends with me. They may be few but I'm very happy with them.

You made your choice. I made mine and this is my choice.

Another thing is about the people I look up to. No matter how they try to understand it, they won't ever understand why I look up to these people. They will never understand because they don't want to understand. They're so close-minded.

I surround myself with these people because they inspire me to do better, to never give up, to work my ass off and most of all, they never fail to inspire me. These people came from nothing and look just how successful they are now. Look where they are now. Each and every one of them are all successful in their own fields.

They didn't get where they are because of money. No. They get to where they are now because they worked their asses off. They are people who are really talented and people who really deserve respect!

These people I looked up to and respect the most are people who never stepped on other people just to get to where they are now. They make their own path, they make their own history. They are where they are now because of pure hard work.

You may think I'm surrounding myself with these very successful people because I want to feed on them. Never. It was never the case and I know that they know that too. These people changed my life. They changed my views. They taught me how strong hard work, positive thinking and having faith is. Not because they are successful they don't care about other unsuccessful people anymore. As long as they know you're genuinely working your ass off(trust me they know whether you're real or not) they would even help you, give you pointers how to be better and all those.

They're the example of the best inspirations you could ever have! They're not perfect and that's exactly why they're the best example. They remind us that mistakes is part of life, that mistakes is what makes us stronger and makes us a better person. The more mistakes you make the more lessons you learn and that only means one thing, improve.
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What I most love and respect about these people is that despite their success they are still the most down to earth people I've ever met. I know it because I already met some of them in person.

​Each of them had made a lot of mistakes in the past but if even one of those didn't happen, they won't be where they are now. They won't be the person they are now and most of all, they won't be as strong as they are now. I believe in each of them and what they're capable of. I've only been with them for 3 years and yet a lot of things had already changed in my life and I'm damn sure it's because of them.

To everyone who are curious to who these amazing people are, the top on the list is Jay Park. The other people who are part of the list are Ben Baller, Mina Kwon, Cha Cha Malone, AOM, AOMG and all Jay's fam. I didn't say Jay's fam because he's the one on the top of my list. I call them that because they really are Jay's family. The family and friends he really trusts. I've seen how they struggled but they never stopped. They continued working hard and each of them are making their own paths, their own history. I'll always always be proud of each and every one of them.

I really have huge respect for these people!