I've been so busy since the year started that I rarely get to update my personal site. I feel bad for my own site but at the same time, I feel good for my business' site since I get to update it more often. Well I guess, this is just an example of life's up and down.
Truth is, for the past 20 years, I never felt this good. I have to admit, I was never really the optimistic kind of person and I know that's one of the reasons why my life now is better than it was before. In the past, I thought it's all words but after i get to experience it on my own, I finally understood that they're not simply words. It really is true. I'm pretty sure you're one of those people who's sick and tired of hearing the words "Be positive" like I do so I won't be surprised if you won't believe me either. It's really hard to fully understand and believe it unless you experience it yourself.
I've been a fangirl for who knows how long. I may not be able to remember when I started being one but this I'm sure of, I've been a fangirl for than a decade already. I guess, I was really born to be one and I'm happy I am.
One of the most common misunderstanding when it comes to fangirl/fanboy is that people only see us as "crazy people" The type of people who go crazy over someone or something but thing is we're not just that. Yes, we do go crazy over someone or something and that's only because we support and love that. We don't simply love them but we love them unconditionally. We don't ask for something in return and that's something I'm really proud to say as a fangirl myself. You wouldn't fully understand the happiness of being a fangirl/fanboy until you become one so I really hope people would stop judging us without even knowing us at all.
I remembered a friend of mine once told me that fangirl/fanboy are martyrs. Of course, I asked the same question you have in mind. "Why?" She told me it's because we're liking, or better yet, loving someone that could never be ours. When I heard that, I ended up laughing. I wasn't mad because it's true.
As a fangirl myself, I've been through a lot of different situations and different treatments in this crazy yet amazing world we call, fanworld. I've supported someone for 7 years now and another for about 2-3 years now. The big difference between these 2 are not only the number of years but also the experience and memories. I wouldn't go into details to it but all I can say is, the new one that I support really did made a huge difference in my life. I know people will hate me for saying this but it's the truth.
Meeting Jay was just a spontaneous decision of mine and it was indeed one of the best spontaneous decisions I ever made in my life. After meeting him in person, it made me want to know more about him. As time passed by, not only did I get to know him but I also get to learn from him. He doesn't have that "perfect" image for an idol like most artistes does and that's exactly the exact same reason why I love him. Him not being perfect makes him more human, makes him more real and that's what I really love about him. He's free to do what he wants and he doesn't give a damn about what other people would say and I really look up to him when it comes to this. He doesn't want or even try to be someone else. He wants to make a difference. He's drawing his own path and he's making his own history. He's simply him and no one else.
In the past, I was always bothered about what people think of me and after knowing Jay, a lot of things had changed. He changed how I look at life. If in the past, I was a lazy and pessimistic person. Now, I have to say I'm more optimistic and I'm working so hard that even I can't believe that I'm capable of doing the things I'm doing. He's the main reason why my life is better but I wouldn't forget that his fam also helped me. Knowing Jay brought me to AOM, AOMG, Prepix, PPA, Ben, Mina Kwon and tons of other amazing people who deserves more respect than they're getting. Man, am I BLESSED to know all these people!
Meeting all of them made me realize how having positive thoughts, faith and most of all, working hard, could make a huge difference in life. Since I met Jay and his fam, I started learning how to really apply the words "work hard play hard" and this year is just the start of the changes in my life.
I really want to thank God for giving me all these opportunities! I know, if it weren't for him, I wouldn't be where I am now. I know if it weren't for him, I wouldn't meet Jay and his fam either.
I remembered I read a tweet before. The main thought of the tweet was surround yourself with successful people and remove the people who drags you down and you'll see the difference. Some people might think of this negatively. They might think that you just want to be with successful people so you can feed on them and be successful. No it's not like that. Surrounding yourself with successful people gives you the urge, passion, perseverance, and that hunger that you want to be like them and that in order to be successful, you need to work your ass off! Having successful people around you makes you want more and dream more. Learn from them, make them as your inspiration and you'll see how much changes you'll have in your life.
Dream + Hard Work + Faith = SUCCESS