I will never deny the fact that I'm not one of those people who had been with him since day one. I won't deny that because it's the truth. I don't care if people will hate me because of it or what. I'm where I am now because of the things that happened along the way. If any of those didn't happen, even one, I'm pretty sure I won't be where I am now. But ever since the day I had the chance to meet Jay, everything changed and eventually I became a Jwalkerz. It was my choice. No one forced me nor anyone stopped me.
Like what Jay said himself, "My past helped me to become who I am now, and I don't feel ashamed of my past."
Credits to Jay Park Network
Now that I'm a proud Jwalkerz a lot of things happened. I gained new friends, I lost some. It's part of life. Not everyone will stay but each and every person that will come to your life will always have a purpose.
I met Jay for the first time last May 6, 2012 during his New Breed promotion here in the Philippines. Funny thing was it wasn't planned at all. Truth is, he had been visiting Philippines every year since 2010(if I remembered it correctly) and sadly my first meet with him was also the last time he visited the Philippines. Yeah, I know. I'm such a loser for being a Jwalkerz so late right? Yeah. I've been feeling the same thing whenever I remember how much I've missed. lol So during his New Breed promotion here, he even stayed for like 5-6 days and yes I only saw him once.
When I first met Jay, I honestly didn't know any song from him. I was simply a girl who came to see him spontaneously. I wouldn't even be there if my ticket wasn't free. Mr. Kevin Tan of Megaworld had a contest on Twitter for free tickets for his meet and greet. Knowing it was a free chance so why not? So I entered and luckily I won. Having my free pass, I went to see him without knowing any song from him and I'm thankful I did. Watching him perform, despite the language barrier, he blew my mind! I really enjoyed it! He really know how to make the crowd enjoy not only his show but also his music. I think I even enjoyed too much that after meeting him for the first time, I already searched for his next schedules/guesting and he had one last before he leaves. It was on the night of the following day. It was Bandila and through his short interview with Tito Boy, he officially got me.
Watching how carefree he was, how casual he was, not having that barrier around him, not having that "idol" feel like as if he's untouchable. Seeing all those, I was amazed! I don't see a lot of "genuine" people in this industry and I rarely get that feel from people. I'm someone who really believes in my own instincts and trust me when I tell you that most of the times, what it tells me is true. And with Jay, I just felt it. I didn't even questioned myself. Now that I knew him more, I finally understood why. Jay Park didn't have to be questioned.
After years of being with this family, I can really say that he didn't only grew as a person but he also grew as an artist. Not to mention, he even have his own label now. AOMG (Above Ordinary Music Group) is not your "usual" label in Korea. Jay made the label because he wanted to show the world what real music is. He doesn't do this music because it's the trend or because it will sell more. No. That's not Jay Park. That's not AOMG. He lets the members(which he doesn't really consider as members but instead, family) do the music they want. They don't have the leader/member or manager/employee relationship. Whenever they make music, they help each other. Each of them is good on a specific field that the other lacks. They learn from each other and through that, they were able to release 6 albums and one of them is Jay's newest album, Evolution.
An album like Evolution that even other artistes gave their heads up to, really deserves to be heard by more people. Not just his fans, Jwalkerz, but also by people who don't know him. It's such an awesome music that don't deserve to be kept but instead, shared with as much people as possible. He worked so goddamn hard for it. Of course, it's normal for him to want to promote it. Who wouldn't? But then things happen. Not all things goes as planned.
The only thing Jay and Jwalkerz wanted was for MORE people to know about him and the music he made. Is that really so hard? For us, yes it is. But we didn't let it stop us. The more we experience hardships, the more we grew stronger and the more we wanted to work harder. The bond between Jay and Jwalkerz is just that tight. Jwalkerz is a family that is why we really trust each other. That's how we are.
Jay's music doesn't deserve to be kept to his fans that is why we hustle as hard as him because we want to give Jay and his music what they deserve. However, some things can never be avoided. When people start seeing how successful, how talented a person is, and what he's capable of, it draws people's attention. All of a sudden, they see you as a threat and that's when things gets out of hand.
At times like this, we kept quiet because that's what Jay taught us. Just ignore them and instead of wasting time pondering about those, we should focus more on improving ourselves. That's what we did but there's always a LIMIT to everything and once you crossed that line, there's no way we'll shut our mouths. We hustle so hard, day and night, that's why we are where we are now. Just because we're small and we achieved something, it doesn't mean we cheated. We NEVER do that. Jay always fight fair so do we. We represent Jay so we won't do anything that would tarnish his image.
Everyone have different thoughts and I respect that but what I cannot respect is when people stepped on other people just to be successful. You won't gain anything from that. Yes, right now, you may feel successful, that you're on top but time will come, you might be the one being stepped on and trust me when I tell you it's a very unpleasant feeling. Personally, I've been there that's why I know how it feels. Who knows, in the near future someone bigger than you will do the same. It's not ALWAYS that you're the one on top. Keep in mind, there will ALWAYS be someone better than you. If you can't acknowledge that then you really need to change your mindset.
Jay taught me a lot of things. He taught me what WORK HARD PLAY HARD is really all about. He taught me how powerful hard work, positive thoughts and faith is when you put them together. Cheesy as it may sound but this is true, Jay changed my life. He changed how I see things. I've always been a very pessimistic person. I've always been in the below average group when it comes to school even in college. People loved dragging me down and I was dragged down. I NEVER take risks. I always preferred being on my safe zone. That was before and look where I am now. I'm nothing big but I can say that I also came from nothing to something and I'll still always always always have a long way to go. Believe it or not, I won't really be where I am now if it weren't for Jay. Seeing how he and his fam worked their asses off, it inspired me. It inspired me to work harder than I ever did in my life. Failures should be accepted and not ignored. Once you learn to accept it, you're also giving yourself the chance to grow. Don't be scared to fail. Take risks. Challenge yourself. You're capable of so many things than you can ever imagine.
This is my journey with Jay and I know I'm not the only one he shone his light onto. Thank you for the inspiration, for changing my opinion on music and most of all, for all the lessons. I'll always be thankful towards you. I'll forever be in debt to you. I'm happy to be with you through this journey. It doesn't matter if there's a lot of ups and downs, I'll always have your back. Continue doing what you love. Continue being free as you always been. Just live your life the way you want to. It's yours.
I'm really happy to be part of this family and I'll continue to show my love, support, and most of all, respect. Not as a fan but as a person and from one artist to another, you have my utmost respect Jay.
You're different because you're you, Jay Park 박재범
One of my personal favorite quotes from Jay himself